Thursday, November 5, 2009
34 weeks...rings don't fit... waddling like a duck...but excited.
Can't believe there is only 6 weeks to go - possibly 5 if I have to have a c-section. Time is flying.
The aches and pains from pregnancy have officially started...big time...have been getting really bad abdominal pains when I walk around.... I probably look like a duck - have the same shape as one :-) and my wedding rings no longer fit...My feet, hands, fingers and ankles blow up if I sit down for too long or walk around too much. I've resorted to wearing a massive fake wedding band and engagement ring - because I don't want to look like a harlot at the ultrasound clinic...I'm married..I'm allowed to have sex. ;-)
But I'm in good spirits...and I'm really looking forward to meeting the little one that has been kicking and poking me. So is Dave..
We watched Dunston's Baby Language last night...pretty funny seeing all these screaming babies...and trying to decipher what they need.
I'm so nervous about becoming a mum...I'm not sure if I will be a good one...I'll probably want to play too much, hold them too much, make them spoilt and crazy in shopping centres...but at least I have a lot of love to give. My very first blood line...that's all mine...and without any mystery....a new start in my heritage. It might not mean a lot to most, but being adopted and not knowing all the biological details of the family tree has caused a bit of a cloud over my life...stuff that is common knowledge to most...will always be a mystery to me. So I'm very thankful, that my kids will know the most important stuff.
The only things I wish for, is that the baby is healthy, has all fingers and toes, eyesight, hearing and that it grows up knowing what an incredible family it has as a support network. It might not be a normal family (with 3 grandma's, 3 grandpa's and half aunties and uncles)...but it's our family...and this is how we roll.
Bringing a baby into this world is the biggest thing that is going to happen to me...and I'm going to try and do the very best I can at being a great mum and wife.
I love my husband with all my heart - the bond we share is so incredible that each day I feel like it gets stronger. We are each others best friend, lover and confidante. We are never bored in each others company....and when I look at Dave I'm constantly drawn in...we make each other laugh...and we are each others' support. To me the biggest gift I could give to Dave, to show him how much I love him..is this baby...and I secretly hope that the baby has all its' fathers qualities...because my cheeky, sometimes untidy, always needy characteristics are definitely annoying. :-)
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